Humans have a funny way of thinking we know everything. Even if we’ve seen ourselves grow from one understanding to the next, we always assume we now have the right answer and know how things work. But it makes us feel safe and in control to feel this way, so we keep doing it. But if you think about it, it wasn’t that long ago that we thought the world was flat and that the sun and stars revolved around us! And that’s just geography. Now, add onto that the understanding of why we are here and how life is sustained, and we’re even more at a loss.
Why am I bringing this up? Because in order to follow our hearts and come alive, we have to give ourselves permission to feel outside of our current understanding. When we can do this, we will be able to access more of our truth and become freer and more alive people. During an Evaluation, the first step I have you do is ask yourself how you want to feel, not what you want to do. I do this because feelings are less defined in our minds, so we can see a little more broadly. But at the heart of it all, it’s not just about feelings, it’s about finding our Truth.
There are many names for what I call Truth, choose which one you will, but for the sake of clarity, let me describe it a bit to you. Think of it like playing an internal guitar. You look inside of yourself and start plucking at the strings. When you hit the right string, it plays a perfectly in tune note that you know is the person you are at the very center of things. Your heart will open up and an amazing energy will start to flow through you. That is the feeling we’re chasing. That’s when you know it’s your Truth. Knowing that Truth helps you to see who you are and what direction to be intentional in.
However, Truth operates from an understanding outside of our current boundaries, so we often don’t understand why it suddenly wants to take a left turn, or jump over a building. After all, we listened to it’s needs and are now being intentional about making them a reality. But we must remember that our Truth understands better than our brains do. It is in alignment with how things really are, even when we can’t see the whys or hows behind it. I know this is difficult to do, but we have to be willing to let go of our grip a little and follow our Truth even when we don’t understand.
This goes against everything we are taught in modern society. It’s different being intentional with our Truth than with a goal derived from an outside source. There are countless books, YouTube videos, and speakers who will tell us the step by step guide to achieving our dreams. And we will plow through those steps to get that one thing. And following those steps may very well be a part of your path to Truth, but what I find often happens is that there is a sudden bend in the road. A moment when our heart flips, and we think, But this is my Truth. The path I want to follow. Leaving it behind will be betraying it. But we’re confused because our Truth seems to be fighting against itself. So it takes us longer to let it go (if we let it go at all) and then we are stuck wondering why we don’t feel alive any more.
I have a picture in my head of running in a field. I run as fast as I can until out of nowhere I smack head on into a translucent wall. It knocks me on my ass, my head spinning, and I see that the wall is now blocking my path. After I recover, I look to the right and there is an open way, so I get up and start running… until I smack into another wall. This happens to me again and again, until I reach the destination I was searching for from the beginning. You see, I thought I knew the way from the start, because I couldn’t see the invisible walls and my destination seemed to be straight ahead of me. But it wasn’t really the way. I really had to run through a maze.
What I’ve started noticing, is that the more in tune I am with my Truth, the more I can feel the walls coming. My heart will suddenly change directions and I will slow and take note. But then my brain will catch up and say, “But I can see the goal right there in front of me, your heart is wrong. Logical reasoning and all the experts say, run forward. Besides, I’ll look like a fool if I run the other way.” Then I run forward, smack into the wall, and have to turn and go the other way.
It hurts smacking into walls.
It’s okay to change. It’s okay to run forward with full conviction, stop, and take a left turn if your heart is telling you to. Understanding that our Truth knows more than we do, that we don’t have a complete understanding of the way things work, and that we can trust our hearts to guide the way, is a major step in coming alive.
Change is viewed as such a negative thing in our society, because we can’t control things that are always changing. Because of this, it hurts our pride to change because we’ve made declarations and moved with conviction, so people will notice. The only way to change with ease, is to let go of those faces in our mind that are judging us, and to be convinced that our Truth knows the way.
And if that doesn’t work, I’ve found this note taken from Benjamin Franklin’s biography as a huge help: He found himself in this predicament quite a lot, as he was always changing and growing. Being the analytical type, he discovered that if he prefaced everything he said with the phrase, “In my current understanding…” it left the door open for the possibility of change in his life, and took much less of a toll on his pride.
So walk forward. Follow your heart. And if you miss a queue and smack into a wall, take comfort in knowing that either way, you’ll get to the finish line, as long as you keep going. It may just hurt a bit sometimes.