I must admit, this post covers a sensitive subject for me. You see for years now, I’ve been an anxiety picker, which I’ve been extremely ashamed of. What this means is that whenever I am stressed, in deep thought, or anxious, I pick my face. I hate that I do this, because I inevitably turn what is many times a non-existent pimple, into a crater and scab. My face then looks horrible and I feel bad about myself.
As my Appearance Goal is to look as good as I can for as long as I can, I knew something had to be done about this. I felt hopeless though, because I do it subconsciously most of the time, so can’t easily catch it. I’ve also tried to stop many times before and have been unsuccessful. But I put a task in my 90 day plan to do some research and come up with a solution, because I can’t keep running from it and pretending it doesn’t exist. No, I needed to face it head on.
After a Google search, I discovered this is a rampant problem for many people, and is akin to biting one’s nails. It’s not a self punishment issue (as I had worried a little bit about, since there seems to be a sort of pleasure I get from the pain), but rather an anxiety release. The advice was to pay attention to “trigger” points and then buy some gloves to wear during times when you may be tempted to pick.
I discovered that my trigger points were watching TV, having conversations, laying awake at night and thinking, working on my computer, and driving. Also, if I soak in the bath and think, it’s a trigger point as well. Armed with this information, I went out and bought what I’m calling ‘My Conversation Gloves’. I wear them whenever I’m doing any of the trigger activities.
I have to tell you, it’s been a huge help! I am picking way less (although I catch myself at it still sometimes, especially if I’m angry and have an “I don’t care” attitude), and I’m finding that I’m desiring to pick less as well. My confidence has gone up as my face is much clearer, and my hope is that staying away from picking for an extended period of time will eventually break the habit. Then I won’t need the gloves. But for now, the gloves are always within reach, and it will stay that way as long as needed.
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