I hate “THE VOID”. You know, that place in-between goals, adventures, and dreams. The place where all one can do is exist and wait for their brain to decipher the puzzle and find a new direction.
What do I hate most about The Void? Well there is a certain chance that while I am in this dark and horrible place I will run into BOREDOM.
Boredom happens to be my arch nemesis. To this day, with every intensely negative emotion I have experienced, Boredom is one of the emotions I despise the most. The worst emotions are hopelessness and feeling unloved, but boredom comes in right underneath them.
I have been in the void a lot lately as I stoke fires and then wait for them to catch on. As I wonder whether my planted seeds will grow (book, speaking, blog), and that if they do grow up to be big beautiful blooms, if that’s what I really want in the first place, I sit around and go crazy.
I’ve speculated, meditated, prioritized, theorized, cried, been cranky for fun, and put feelers out in every direction I could possibly think of, all while losing and re-finding myself countless times in this void. Did I also mention that boredom causes me to OVERTHINK?
Overthinking is a curse and a blessing. For one, tragic and dramatic thoughts are much more entertaining than positive balancing thoughts, so when overthinking is caused by boredom, said overthinking is sure to be dramatically tragic. However, all this thinking eventually produces new ideas that are the catalyst for jumping out of the void, so it is a necessary evil.
And I am thrilled to announce that at some point last week, I overthought my way out of that damn void, and began a new journey!
In a matter of what seemed like 24 hours, I went from binge watching Netflix to a fully booked calendar, new marketing campaign, and more activity than I’ve had in a month. My brain FINALLY clicked into place and we were off again.
I’m just gonna stop and do a little chair dance right now.
Okay, I’m back.
The way progress works for me is centered around conviction not tasks, which is why when I am experiencing a lull I don’t go looking for goals, but rather a motive. I have learned a lot about my personality in the last couple of years, and I am now fully confident that if I am genuinely motivated with a deep interest or conviction, there is no obstacle that can stand in my way. My brain will punch and weave and fight anything obstructing forward motion, and creative solutions will pour out of me.
But if I am doing something because I am afraid of what will happen if I don’t, or afraid of outward persecution should I not, then I will do a half-assed job and probably not complete the task. Actually, now days I won’t even start it.
I’m all or nothing. But when I’m ALL, I’m awesome. And I’m geeked about my new direction.May your choices reflect your hopes, not your fears. – Nelson Mandela Click To Tweet
On that note, I have been receiving feedback about Living an Alive Life being a great book club read because of all the reflective questions it includes, and have multiple requests for a book club edition or guide. I would love to put this sort of guide together, but could really use some beta groups to do it with before publishing. If this is something you’re interested in (whether through your blog or an in-person group), send me a note through my contact form and we can discuss the details.
Also, I am looking for people who would like to read and review my book. If this interests you, I will send you a free PDF copy of the book in exchange for either an Amazon or Blog review.
Thank you to everyone who has already done this. All of your support and book love means the world to me.
So much is happening and I can’t wait to share it all with you. My plan is to start writing more consistently again and I’m excited to connect. And a BIG thank you to the Friday Reflections Link Up for making my post, When the Sand Runs Out, from last week your “Featured Writer” post.
This post is a Friday Reflections Link Up with Janine @ Reflections From a Redhead and Mackenzie @ Reflections From Me. Join the link up and share in the conversation.